I can't help Stop regretting for what has already occurred I can't help suffocating to almost death over the Situations that I have created, over the lifeless on-goings in my Life which actually are unworthy of being given attention.
No matter what, some things don't change. I am a bad Girl and always will remain so. No matter what I do, my past won't Stop punishing me and make me feel less guilty for ruining my life, my innocence, my true principles and beliefs, my carefree smile.
And on the top of that, I hurt people who have done no noticeable harm to me. I want to hug, I want to deeply snuggle into someone's chest --- whether, it is a friend or a sister or a random stranger --- to get that temporary solace for which i am earnestly craving for. I boast of being a Strong girl but underneath, I am a fragile creature; ripped to pieces at the very first blow of my near and dear ones.
Just wondering at the number of Wounded Souls who were once Fresh Blooming flowers and I seriously marvel at the capacity of this Social Animal when Put to stress, the capacity with which It withstands every storm and hopes for it to subside to absorb the Sunshine. The eyes which give away nothing and withhold numerous sorrows, regrets, untold wishes from the beholder just in fear of being rejected again. That smile which brings a smile on the beholder but kills the originator every second of the smile. Surely, God has taken extra care in building us. If it were not so, we would have been able to survive all this turbulent ups-and-downs in our life and more-so would not have been able to breathe again in the hope that someday, sometime everything will turn out to be alright..
I salute those who in spite of undergoing piercing hardships and tortures in their life, strive every second to make their life count, to make others happy, to bring a smile on every sad face. Its my wish that someday, I will bring a Smile on their face which would not be a Fake one but a Genuine one --- Straight from their heart!!!
No matter what, some things don't change. I am a bad Girl and always will remain so. No matter what I do, my past won't Stop punishing me and make me feel less guilty for ruining my life, my innocence, my true principles and beliefs, my carefree smile.
And on the top of that, I hurt people who have done no noticeable harm to me. I want to hug, I want to deeply snuggle into someone's chest --- whether, it is a friend or a sister or a random stranger --- to get that temporary solace for which i am earnestly craving for. I boast of being a Strong girl but underneath, I am a fragile creature; ripped to pieces at the very first blow of my near and dear ones.
Just wondering at the number of Wounded Souls who were once Fresh Blooming flowers and I seriously marvel at the capacity of this Social Animal when Put to stress, the capacity with which It withstands every storm and hopes for it to subside to absorb the Sunshine. The eyes which give away nothing and withhold numerous sorrows, regrets, untold wishes from the beholder just in fear of being rejected again. That smile which brings a smile on the beholder but kills the originator every second of the smile. Surely, God has taken extra care in building us. If it were not so, we would have been able to survive all this turbulent ups-and-downs in our life and more-so would not have been able to breathe again in the hope that someday, sometime everything will turn out to be alright..
I salute those who in spite of undergoing piercing hardships and tortures in their life, strive every second to make their life count, to make others happy, to bring a smile on every sad face. Its my wish that someday, I will bring a Smile on their face which would not be a Fake one but a Genuine one --- Straight from their heart!!!
